Recently, sensational news about the suicide always hits the headlines. Yesterday, a female doctoral student committed suicide by jumping from the height. One more! Since I came to GZ, I have begun to hear about those upsetting events. About 10 suicides of doctoral candidates, college teachers, and students. Terrifying!!!
Maybe, I could not conjure up the desperate feeling of them:
Why they were so obsessed with death? Just the thought of death would scare me away. Life is so short and fleeting. Why not live your life to the fullest?
Why they easily give up their lives? Just bathe in the sunshine, smell the fragrant flowers, watch the daily drama, imagine something awesome, one would restore the heart and be hopeful.
Does it really take more courage to be alive than dead? The courage under pressure.
Do they take their loved ones into consideration? They would break their hearts and walk to their grave with this cloud of shadow forever.
Why don’t they survive the darkest hour by turning to their friends for help? Just the timely consolation and company will do them good.
Is life really synonymous with despair and unhappiness for them? ….
I could put millions of question marks to their suicide and work out the possible solutions myself. But, I know all those questions are simply nonsense and meaningless in that occasion. They are just unhappy!!! And their unhappiness and suffering weighs so much to them.
Those who toil physically from day to night would be less likely to lament over their dark life that those who are at war with themselves compulsively.
Those who have lesser knowledge would be much happier than those who are well-learned and brilliant.
It almost becomes the law that more educated you are, more responsibility you have to confront, and even more miserable you would become.
How blessed it would be to just be a commonplace woman and take ordinary pleasures of life?
Life would be easier and bearable if we just lower our expectation and simply ourselves. I am still learning to handle this art of loss with easy attitude.
Just Cherish every breath of life!!!