A luxurious bunch of sunlight creeping into the office, which sets the warm and soft ripple lingering over my heart. The brilliant sun often reminds me of hopeful faith in the vigor and immortality of life. So long as we live on, life will never suck. I have been immersed in my grief and sadness for almost half a month and turned every thing or every person I came across unacceptable and unfavorable. What if my little brother can’t be found eventually? Varieties of ominous answers clamor over my ears and push me again and again in the tearful pray and despair. Something gonna drive me insane and inert, I wish I were a callous and cold-blooded one who was insensitive to the disguise of happiness and bliss, then I could forever secure my self-created ivory tower. But it’s self-delusion. I couldn’t let go such gnawing and irritable fear or worry for my only brother. The growth is always accompanies with the pangs of loss and sacrifice and compromise and helplessness. I am no longer the vulnerable and naïve girl who always need the careful protection, heartfelt recognition and sweet favor of others, after such eventful experience during this year, more and more unexpected thoughts leave the indelible imprints in my hearts. I have to offer the security shield for my parents, my grand-ma and those need me as the backbone of their happiness. I have to shoulder the responsibility with natural hospitality and intuitive courage. I can’t curse the unfairness of life or fate that always plays such ill-humored or malicious jokes on me. I have to find a way out by myself to seek the relief and solace. God or Buddha is too occupied to lend me a hand to solve all those bothers. I can’t degrade my own morale and ambition simply because of the excuse of inability to change the status quo. Bestow me the gallantry to resolve all those painful problems. I will never lower my head and surrender to the weariness and toughness of such challenges. Always strive to advance with responsibility rather than retreat with moan and groan. Summer glare, please chase away the inward fear perching on the shadowy corner of my heart.