Recently, I try to wring out a decision discreetly. I have ever slipped upon the former determination ,I don't know whether I am courageous enough to pluck up my guts again.I am diffident, I am conservative,if I apply for it again, it signifies the tough and eventful road and the intense pressure . I am fearful of the probable fall and the inevitable shadowy future. But if I remain as what I am now, I know there is always tremendous regret dominated in my heart. I am dreadful of the present lifestyle , I hate the monotonous and callous job, I am afraid of my gradual degeneration into the money grub instinct. I doubt my dream and my enthusiasm will be decayed and wore away unconsciously under the load of reality. I know it isn’t the optimum time to bid for this dream , because I am wearied of daily work, because I can’t concentrate all my time and energy like I have ever did on campus just for the pursuit of the entrance. But I do need some change, I do need sacrifice something to fight for that dream ….God tells me whether I should fight or flight.
[b]The Road Through Hell, Paved With Desperation
The road through Heaven, paved with bloody struggle[/b]
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.