Fleeting Flash of Eternity

朋友是一个很外柔内刚的女生.从未拍拖过,却一如既往相信爱情,相信美好的感情.

我一次我们在讨论,爱情是否到了最后都淡漠或升华成另一种习惯或所谓亲情.她很坚定很幸福地说,她不相信.爱情就是爱情.不会蜕变成亲情的.这种观点对我而言极具 ** 性,我质疑说,你觉得你父母之前不存在亲情吗?她说,是的,他们之间有的是爱情.后来方知,她还有一个刚5岁的弟弟.由此可见她父母情浓甚笃.

前阵子,她父亲突然迟世.

我还记得那个中午,当我们都渐渐陷入正午迷梦时,突然她一声嚎啕大哭,说:你骗我,你骗我,这不可能.阿姨你在骗我…那时的她已经溃不成声.从梦境中猛跌淡出,我们都冲到她房间里,有感肯定大事不妙.朋友只是在那边紧紧地拽着电话,肩膀抽搐得厉害,悲恸,不解,声嘶力竭,抽泣声,弥漫了整个房间.我颤抖着,那种痛苦的情绪勾绘了去年的伤痕.恍如黑白电影的压抑基调,咿咿呀呀的哀愁小提琴声此起彼伏, 声色凋零, 萧瑟不堪.我木然地站着,看着女友泣不成声,揪心.

后来两周她回了老家.我断断续续地从她的闺密打听她的消息.她的闺密只是摇摇头,叹气.生命不能承受之..生离死别.这种滋味任千言万语也苍白.

上周她终于回校了,和她的妈妈及弟弟.几次来宿舍的时候我都恰好在场.小朋友可爱,羞涩,憨态可鞠,童趣怏然.我局促地在一旁寒暄着,有一搭没一搭地扯些家常话.朋友回以淡淡的微笑,那种坚韧又强打精神的笑让我很顿感心酸.是的,坚定的,坚持的,坚强的,一贯如她.

This unvarnished and tough smile illuminates me all of a sudden, there is nothing hopeless and insurmountable, even the greatest grief could be overcome only if you attempt positively to face it unyieldingly. Don’t shrink from the sudden disaster imposed by fate, don’t avoid the unfavorable and unpleasant life experience, don’t make yourself involved in the gloomy complaints, don’t give in to the thoughts of being the victim of fate, don’t make yourself a loser by surrendering completely to the probable trap of life…..

Life is a chain of fleeting moments of love, ill-fate, abandonment, bittersweet departure. What makes the difference is how you eternalize the momentary bliss and omit the unhappy experience. That really counts a lot—our attitude towards being the master or victim of our own life.

She would be something oneday.