Samuel Johnson 说过：To be idle and to be poor have always been
reproaches and therefore every man endeavors with his utmost care
to hide his poverty from others and his idleness from himself.
美国清教徒consider idleness as a sin.unpardonable.照此推论，我这阶段已经在慢性自杀了。Idle!!Idol!!细细联想这两同音单词，不禁想：Idol
is somebody with pleasant and admirable idleness.叹！我一介平民，只能说我确是以闲为耻了。。对于我来说，to be as busy as bee 的生活状态才是最有意义的生活状态了。。一有时间闲下来，wave after wave of
turbulent emotion pour toward me.Overwhelming surge!!I am really
intolerable of the passive idleness like I should sit alone all
day without a bit of positive mental work but being sentimental
sad and irritable.
The literary books in the shelves always put in my mind the busy
but significant period of time when I was in the library fighting
for my own dream. Withoug single idea of withdrawal from chanllenge
without even the thought over the trivial chores,life at that time
was worthy of recollection. However,there is a warning voice
echoing :you should look forward..Never look backward...The future lies before you instead of behind you...
So again ,I was struck by my sense of emptiness and guilt. I was
at a loss as to how to repeat your past..Never!!!Impossible!!But
it's ok.Sometimes,you can't take the loss as failure,or the failure as fiasco. It could be even worse if I really shiverd and lost
the hope. Millions of time,I boost my morale by knocking my hidden
coward down :em215:,I believed everyone consisted of two parts 
ne
courageious, another chicken-livered.If you dare stifle your own
weakness,then your strong part would emerge....:em222:
Never say die!!!
老爸老妈大伯：好想告诉你们：我真的很爱你们。很不想让你们失望。我不知道自己能不能坚持地走下去，走我自己的路。我知道如果我走另外的路可能会有好的前景，可是我只想选择这一条。。这在别人看来该死的文学---却是我心中最美妙的风景。不是因为她如何高尚无比，只是我就是无缘由地想继续继续这条路。TO ME，IT’S UTOPIA！！！
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