X城的梅雨季节轻轻地为四月拉开了序幕,纷纷扬扬的三月就这样闷着一肚子的心事,不声不响地飘过.
即使曾在我内心响过一声惊雷,如今也幻化成一片枝桠上的嫩绿,嫩绿上洋洋洒洒的雨丝, 雨丝上亦浅亦深的惆怅.
人,终究是喜好喧嚣和热闹的动物.所以,当热闹谢幕时,就很难安于淡如白水的生活.
突然会忘记自己以前的样子,是如何度过这样雨絮霏霏的季节,是读着席慕蓉的诗作,勉强说愁,那些晶莹美好的句子只是疏影横斜水清浅的寂寥心情.
记得有一句是,那记忆却在你怀中日渐/晶莹光耀/每一转侧/都来触到痛处/使回首的你伧然老去//.
我是凡人/我的生命就是这滚滚凡尘/这认识的一切我都希求/快乐啊忧伤啊/是我的担子我都想承受/明知道总有一日/所有的悲欢都将离我而去/我仍然竭力地搜集/搜集那些美丽的纠缠着的/值得为她活了一次的记忆.
那个时期的我就是这样痴痴地傻傻地纠结在那些旧句子里,晦涩地体会着一些令我懵懂的情绪.
那是个诗意的年龄,而那时的我是热烈地喜爱文学的,曾经认为我会不知疲倦,无怨无悔地读下去.可是,现在的我却没有了往日的情衷.我无法像导师那样在课堂上笃定地说,我是爱文学的,所以才留在校园.
而如今,书架上的书已经不是昨日的容颜,商务类的书籍大行其道,每日都与我亲密过招,而文学类的书退居二线,仿佛打入冷宫的妃嫔,绝望地焦虑地等着主人的再次回心转意.
此刻之后,一转身,你我变成陌路.
"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times; it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness; it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity; it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness; it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair; we had everything before us, we had nothing before us; we were all going directly to Heaven, we were all going the other way."
物是人非的悲凉恐怕也只能如此了.
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