May
15
[b]一下子发生的那么多事让我错愕。Awe..and Awful。。。。
开始睡不着，在黑暗中觉得慌措。觉得不安定。。不知道明天还会发生什么事。
选择？如果我还有选择的话。。。
My Dear，Do you know what kind of life I want to live?
Far from the madding crowd..Far from the blind drifting without resistance.
Far from the automatic and freedom-deprived working routine..
Something began losing,more and more vanishing.......
I don't know how to fill the gaping hole suddenly zipped off in my heart..
Fear..Fear..Uncertain...Hopeless....
One said he didn't anyhow rely on the other's recognition and impression of
himself as the source of confidence or growth..
I tried to but in vain...I tried to but in vain...
I only wish at present that I could sleep before dawn..Twilight[/b]